It’s enormous. It’s
all consuming. It’s somewhat
obsessive. It causes me to do things I
would never consider doing otherwise.
It’s more powerful than I thought it would be, even though I knew it’d
be huge. There aren’t enough adjectives
to describe it. I thought I knew, but I
just didn’t know. And yet, my love for
this child grows every day. How could
that be? And sometimes it manifests in
ways that I wish it didn’t- the ways in which I worry, the ways in which I grow
weary.
One crazy realization that this love has brought me is the
true understanding that this is how much my parents have loved and love
me. I have no doubt about that now. Not that I ever did. I must admit, I’ve spent some time in my 20s
analyzing the ways in which my parents screwed me up over the years, and
granted, the screwed-up is there. But I
never really knew that THIS was what they went through. Wow.
I'm sure they chuckle to themselves every time they talk to me these days. Haha- I sure did get my come-upins. And I mean that in the best way possible.
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